Aaand that's a big nope. 

It was fun while it lasted.
It was an exercise in living in the moment.
It was a test of sorts, to see if I have learned anything.

It turns out that I have. 

These two things showed up on my browser page today, almost as an affirmation:

Fact of the day:
Happy people embrace failure. Failing is a way to figure out what works, and then making changes that lead to happiness and success. - Provided by FactRetriever.com 

Thought of the day:
"Look with favour upon a bold beginning." - Virgil 

So yeah. It was a bold beginning. It was super fun, and the first time I just let it evolve without thinking about it tooo much. He's a fun and happy-go-lucky person and treated me with respect which is more than I can say about most. In the end, though, there were a couple of important personal boundaries that were crossed. I was able to recognize them and acknowledge them instead of ignoring and avoiding. Not without sadness, but I don't think that those things are ever easy, especially with someone you enjoy on so many other levels. It's progress.