you smell like beef and cheese..,.

Elf is one of my most favorite movies. Sometimes, I feel like him. A kid/elf in a grownup body, trying to make it in the year of now. It's difficult. You have to act like a grownup...know about politics and business and stuff like that...know how to 'PROPERLY' handle a realtionship (whatthefuckever) and pay bills and clean house and stuff. Sheesh, I'm lucky I was able to raise a kid because, frankly, I totally identify with Buddy.

Is that scary?

why men love bitches

So I asked myself that age-old question that many of us have asked - why do men love bitches? Even more, how do I become one of those bitches?

Well. I'm reading this book that my niece reccomended. (It's actually called Why Men Love Bitches) She has an amazing marraige, a beautiful new baby, and is a strong young woman. I am so proud of her.

I'm about 2/3 of the way through the book, and there are many parts that make me go "aaaaah - now I get it". One statement in particular. "She [a bitch] just doesn't make decisions based on the fear of losing a man". THAT I can understand. In fact, most of that chapter resonated with me for various reasons that I won't really go into right now.

Then there are other parts that piss me off because I don't agree with "pretending" you are someone else especially for a man - that whole "laugh at his jokes, pretend not to know how to use power tools, let him feel like the man" is bullshit. Or it should be. Is it even possible that there is a man out there who is confident enough to keep his self-esteem, and still be intrigued by and love a woman in spite of the fact that she is sweet AND can mow a lawn, and fill up the windshield wiper fluid, and use power tools, and she even enjoys it? If a woman has as much self esteem as this book advises, then why on earth would she want to pretend to be otherwise??

I'm still reading. I'll give a fully summary/synopsis/review when I'm finished. I just had to get that off my chest. I'm all about learning how to have more self esteem in a relationship, but not about pretending to be someone I am not. Hell, I might be single the rest of my life. Oh well. At least I can fix a lot of my own stuff, and hire someone to fix the stuff I can't.